trick or treat :)

H A P P Y * H A L L O W E E N !!!!

I know we haven't had any updates in a long while, our internet wasn't working at the time.

But now we are all moved into our new place, we have our internet back up and running.

Lots of updates will be posted and plenty of pictures.

But for now, hope everyone has a safe and fun halloween. I will be taking my little red riding hood to chinook centre to go 'trick or treating'. Sadie's first halloween :)

Good Weekend!

Zander, Adera & Sadie

Every other weekend, we have one of my moms co-workers kids over.

Sadie loves them!

It was a nice day Saturday,

so we spent the day shopping at Shawnessy and Chinook Mall.

It was also Sadie's 2nd ride on the c-train.

Her toque from Gymboree.

One of my fave stores to shop at... for her anyways.

Sadie and her mirror

Sadie LOVES mirrors...
Just hangin out in Tito Julius' room.

another Sadie update

Ladies and Gents, Sadie's learned TWO new noises she can make --

1. She now knows how to grunt
2. She also knows how to snort

So i'm in the kitchen, preparing lunch for Sadie and she's playing with Preston (the two year old boy who's family lives with us also), and I hear a strange weird noise. Someone grunting, I look to see who it is and it's Sadie.

A couple hours later or so, the kids are playing in the living room while we (Ashley, Kira and I) are talking and attempting to watch Twilight. So while all this is going on, we hear a snort, we look and it's Sadie.

I don't know who she learned these new noises from or how she discovered them, but ever since she's realized that she can make these noises, she's been doing it non-stop. Grandma B, you would love it!!

She grunts when she's mad and doesn't get her way, or just when she wants your attention. Cause she knows that anything she does, will get our attention hah. And she snorts just whenever she feels like it -- which is all the time.

She's also developed a small temper haha. It needs to be her way or else she will throw a fit and just start squeling and screaming at the very top of her lungs. She makes fists with her hands and her face tenses up and gets all red. I hope this is just a phase haha.

Sadie's learned how to count to 5 with her hand. Well... not really count but when we say "Sadie, let's count", she'll hold her one hand open and have her other hand pointing, ready to count.

I can't believe how fast she is growing and how many new things she is learning and discovering. I love it!

Sadie's First Thanksgiving

mashed potatoes, turkey and carrots ...

beautiful ? nightmare

"Nightmares and recurring dreams are like the engine light on our car - they serve to alert us to something out of balance, or can warn us of impending trouble unless we change something in our lives."

I got that quote from a site I came upon through the msn homepage. Now I don't normally believe in these things, like "what your dreams mean" and things like that. But I clicked on the link anyways and I read through the article.

This quote stood out to me because I somewhat agree with it.

I'm not gonna go into any details, but before I left Winnipeg - actually two nights before I left, I found something out that made me realize that people don't change and that sometimes you just have to move on and not look back. And honestly, I felt like something was holding me back and I was too blind and stupid to know what it was. Actually, I knew what it was or more so, who -- I was just stupid.

When I came back to Calgary, I stopped talking to this person. But a week later, it was the same again. I gave in. And when I started talking to this person I started getting these "nightmares". They weren't really nightmares, looking back now, they were just dreams that made me feel so ... yucky -- that's really the only word that can describe how I felt every morning waking up from these dreams. They were nightmares to me and everyday I had the same dreams but it would be a little different. These dreams always had him in it, but there was always a different girl in the dream (either someone who he's already been with or just a girl that I would have thought he was with). So bad!!

These dreams went on for a good couple weeks until one day, it felt like de ja vu! I was talking to a friend and she was telling me things about this guy that I had feelings that he would end up doing but I just ignored them. After hearing about it, I felt like the same thing was happening exactly a year now.

I felt so stupid and just couldn't believe that I let this thing go on this long! I finally put my foot down. I changed my number and told him to just stay away until he does his part.

The night I changed my number, was the first night I didn't have the "nightmare". And the night after that, and the night after that. I was and still am "nightmare" free. But the question was always in the back of my head, "why did I have these bad dreams for so long and then all of a sudden just I stopped having them?"

And when I read that quote, I felt alot better.

"... (it) can warn us of impending trouble unless we change something in our lives."
I stopped having these nightmares when I finally stopped talking to him. And to this day, I still haven't talked to him and not only have my "nightmares" disappeared, I feel a lot happier. And I just needed to change one thing to feel the way I feel now. Things are finally looking up and there are a lot of events and changes coming up which I am excited about.

I'm just taking one step at a time, and I'm happy I have my friends and family to stupport me.

just want to say ...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Wish we could spend this time with our family and friends back in Winnipeg.
We miss and love all of you guys very much!
xoxo

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Sadie's been saying "hi" and "ate" for the passed couple of weeks.

backyard fun !

sleepy bebe

birthdays, holidays, parties!

I've finally found it!!!

I've finally found the invitation I want to use for Sadie's first birthday invites. I'm so happy with it. The designs, the colors, everything about it! I am just in the process of customizing it to make it look like how I want it but I am so excited to be able to mail it out to everyone! Hopefully soon too!

These next couple months are going to be busy and hectic that's for sure. With halloween, both of our birthdays coming up ( mine being on the 28th of November and Sadie's on the 29th), and still planning Sadie's birthday party, then Winnipeg visit, Christmas and New Years. I can't wait for it all. I know I should be worried and maybe a little stressed, but I am more excited than anything.

I still have a lot of planning and prepping to do for Sadie's birthday party. A lot of decorations still need to be bought and I still need to plan out the menu for that night as well. I just can't believe she is turning one already. This year has gone by way to fast. And seeing how big she is now, I don't even remember how small she was. I was looking at pictures the other day when she first came home and I can't believe how much she has grown and the fact that she was that tiny! This first birthday of hers will be one to remember, that's for sure!

This weekend is Thanksgiving weekend. Sadie's first thanksgiving also. And since we don't have family here, we've invited over family friends over. So we'll still have a full house and lots of food, as if we were living in Winnipeg. I absolutely love turkey dinners! But it also reminds me of the things I am thankful for. And I have A LOT to be thankful for.

I'm really looking forward to the many events coming up and for the new year. I wonder what next year will bring us. For the first time in a long time, I'm finally happy. I'm liking the looks of things and I know, if I keep this up, things will only get better.

end time, 4:50 a.m.

These past few days have been late nights for me. Sadie hasn't been going to bed till late, why you ask -- I couldn't tell ya. But when Sadie is fast asleep and the same with everyone else in the house, it gets nice and quiet. No distractions, nothing. And that's the time when i'm able to hear my own thoughts, and actually relax with no worries (until 9:00 a.m hits).

Lately, i've been thinking about my friends, family and my life in general, and how I am lucky to have the people in my life. You all know who you are.

I'm blessed to have supportive friends and family who, I know, will always be there for me no matter what. No word of a lie, I never thought I'd be friends with the friends I have now. But I guess that's what life is all about -- changes, surprises and just things you would have never expected. But it's good to know who you're real friends are, no matter how late you find them. I'm happy to have the friends I have. Even living this far from them, I still feel like I'm there, with updates mostly everyday on how things are going and also taking the time to see how I'm doing, especially how Sadie is doing. And it's only made us closer than we've ever been before.

My family on the other hand, I expect to be a part of my life. It's obvious there can't really be any changes, other than someone marrying into the family. But either way, I'm happy to have my family. We may not be a perfect family, with a few fall outs, arguments and disagreements here and there, but in the end, I know that we all love each other.
I'm grateful for my mom -- even though sometimes I question about the decisions she makes and I don't end up agreeing with her most of the time, I still love her and I'm thankful for everything she's done for me and for Sadie. She's been there for me every step of the way, and she has always been there for me, no matter what my faults are and the mistakes i've made. And with everything we've gone through together, it's only made us closer.
My auntie is another one. One of my very best friends, who knows everything about me and who I can tell everything to. She really could be my older sister, and sometimes I'd like to think that she is. We do have our arguments and she does lecture me alot of the time, only because she loves me and I appreciate it. I know i've thrown her with alot of "not so good" surprises, but I have no doubt that she wouldn't be there for me. Just like my mom, no matter what i've done or how upset I get her, she's never failed to help me out.
I'm not gonna start talking about every one in my family individually cause that would take forever but the two I mentioned are just one of the many reasons why I love my family and why I'm happy to have them as family. And when it comes down to it, family is everything.

And what i'm most grateful about is having Sadie in my life. I could not imagine not having her in my life. I believe that everything happens for a reason and if I wasn't supposed to have Sadie in my life, she would not be in my life. Plain and simple. But she is and I am so blessed to have her and to call her my daughter. She really makes me want to be a better person, aim high and to work hard to get to my goals in life. And she's the reason to keep me going. I'm not gonna lie, things haven't been going so smooth but she makes me not want to give up and to keep trying. Things are only going to get harder before they get easier and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get us to that point. Alot of it also has to deal with patience. You know how the saying goes, "patience is a virtue". And i'm trying my best to be patient and to let the pieces fall in the right places at the right time. I want her to live a long healthy HAPPY life. She deserves it and more.

Also, I can't forget about the family who i've adopted because of having Sadie in my life. And for those of you who know about the situation, then i'm sure you understand. But ever since I've had Sadie in my life, it's made me closer to a few choice family members and I couldn't be happier with the outcome. I'm thankful for those who has been there for me, and for the family members who Sadie hasn't even met yet, but still has taken the time to send a package for her and to send a little message here and there. Another family besides my own, to spoil her. And if you know her Grandma B, there is no denying that Sadie is her little peanut and would only try to buy Sadie everything Grandma B can purchase and give Sadie everything she could possibly need and more haha. But i'm grateful for this family, and for the things they've done for me and for Sadie.

There's really no need for me to be upset about anything. And the more I look at all my blessings, the more happy I am.

"got my dreams, got my life, got my love
got my friends, got the sunshine above
why do I make things so hard on myself
when i've got so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy"

shout out to Jessica Lander <3>

my love, Sadie Elizabeth Soria

and when she wraps her hand around my finger

oh it puts a smile in my heart

everything becomes a little clearer

I realize what life is all about

It's hanging on when your heart has had enough

It's giving more when you feel like giving up

<3

practice makes perfect

check list :

hold head up , check

sits up on own, check

rolls over, check

crawling, check

gets up on own, check

standing on own, check

walking, check check check :)

tuesday, mom and tots

Up early today for Mom n Tots tuesdays. Although Sadie had a late night. She was up till 2 am, fighting her sleepyness. Every little thing she did frustrated her, and I have never heard her cry so much before. But as much as I tried putting her down for bed, she was not having it.

Late bed time and an early wake up only asks for a grumpy 10 month old. Getting ready wasn't so difficult. Changed her diaper, washed her face, brushed her two little teeth and wiped the rest of her gums. Put on her sweats and sweater and and we were off to play with the other babies and toddlers in the area. But being the youngest out of the group, she either gets left behind or she gets too much attention. This time everyone was on her, showing her toys, hugging her and trying to get her to stand so she can follow them. Sadie loves being around people and little kids but she was so tired. All she wanted was to do her own thing, but the kids wouldn't let her go so easy. So what does a tired 10 month old do when she does not get her way? Cry of course and fuss and crawl to her mummie. "Mumumum" was all she could say, as she was crying and crawling towards me, waiting for me to pick her up. Poor girl, I had her in my lap the whole time pretty much, or by the stairs so she can climb them. Now that she can climb the stairs, she absolutely LOOOOVES them! She spent most of her time by the stairs, climbing all the way to the top, only to have her mummie carry her back down to the bottom. Oh and I can't forget to mention that whenever she gets to the top of the stairs, she looks back at you and she has the biggest grin on her face, like an "i did it mummie" look and starts clapping.

So after a very long 2 hours ( for Sadie anyways) of playing and treats, we get home and right when I put Sadie down in her bed, she is zonked right out and fast asleep. No fussing, no nothing.

As for me, after going to bed at 2 in the morning and waking up 6 hours later, I am exhausted and can't wait to finish this blog so I can take a little cat nap.

But to give a brief update on how Sadie is doing, She is now walking :) !
She took her first two steps a couple sundays ago in church and hasn't stopped trying. She absolutely loves walking and sometimes she gets too excited she falls on her bum. But hey, it happens to every learning baby and the more practice, the better they get. And as her mum, I get way to excited for my own good. haha